I wish I wouldn't have said what I did in my last entry. It sounds selfish and cruel to me. But I guess that's what this is all about, writing what you feel at the moment. Maybe I'll look back on it someday and realize how far I've come. Maybe I'm apologizing to myself, who knows. Whatever the case, I'm sorry I said it. My husband has done nothing but continue to improve and try to make things better for us. I'm a lot luckier than a lot of people. Guess I'll open the cage door and walk o
I was reading someone else's blog and they said they wish they had a day where they weren't needed. God I dream for a day like that, but is probably best not to, since it probably won't ever happen. Even if I get away by myself for a few days, the thought won't go away. It just stays there like a fly to the sticky tape.
I know I talk a lot about my therapist. But one time she asked me, if your husband just flat out left you or asked for a divorce how would it make you feel. Much to my ow
Well I was told yesterday I get to have surgery because of a cyst found on my right ovary. My options are to have the ovary removed through the belly button and then have a DNC, burning the uterus lining because of hormone issues caused by the cyst. Or a complete hysterectomy. The doctor will try the hysterectomy through the belly button and leave the cervix. I think I'll opt for the hysterectomy and if she has to cut me then take the cervix too. (Maybe I'll ask for a tummy tuck while she's
I was at work the other day and my husband called me. "Hi huuuuneee". I said hi back, he said "I'm gowin to the, the, the,....dam" I said Mall? "Yeahh" You going to get some coffee? (his usual reason or just to watch people). "No, I'm gowin to get you a br..br..bracelet". And what do you think my first response was?......Oh no honey you don't have to do that. "Oh okay".
NO, wait, think, what would have been my normal response. "Ummm, wow thanks... what for?" So I backtracked and
My husband did the funniest thing. He has a great sense of humor that was lost the first year and a half after his stroke. And has increasingly been coming back.
I'm always nagging him about using his right hand because he forgets. Uh, what about the right hand? Will you use the right one please? Mr. Righty is just hanging there. Giving him "a look" when the glass he is holding is about to spill because he forgets he's holding it. Now the therapist is the one who started with the "Mr. Right
About a week ago as I was laying in bed ready to go to sleep for the night and I heard these words from my heart "I love life". I don't think I'm crazy, but my response was excuse me? "I love life". Ummm, What? "I love life". Who are you talking to? "I love life".
So here I am having a one sided conversation in my mind because all I was hearing back was, "I love life". I tried to make excuses, you must me talking to someone else, "I love life". No, I used to love life, "I love life"....
Whoaaaaaaaa!!! I just read what I wrote this morning about the religious, spiritual thing. LOL..Man was I pms..ing or what??? Actually I toned it down some from what I was really feeling. Holy Cow!! I won't take it back though. One of my problems was always caring about what people think of me. Guess I'm overcoming a bit in that area. YA THINK???
I'm also thinking blogging is a good thing because I sure feel better!!
Another pms or premenapausal story, they're all one and the s
I read some stuff from some people I like on the whole religious issue and at first I was hurt by it and then I got angry, not at the people, but at the perception of what I believe. So I decided to come here and vent a little bit. Maybe a lot so we'll see. It's my blog so I can do what I want.....RIGHT?????
Maybe someone can tell me WHAT THE HELL IS ORGANIZED RELIGION??????????
I know I've been caught up saying (and I wish you could hear my smart ass tone) "I don't like organized relig
I heard from a good friend yesterday who has always been there for me. I was so glad to hear from him. Funny how one day is blue and then just at the right time the ray of sunlight comes back in. Monday's rain is gone and with his help the days ahead seem brighter than ever. It's so good to have friends you love and who always seem to know when you need them the most.
Okay...on to my therapist. It's my blog so I guess I can talk about whatever I want. I never thought I would ever have
I took the day off from work today. It's slow right now anyway. I was feeling sort of blue this morning. So, I did something I haven't done in a while and have been wanting to. I went to the beach. I just wanted to feel the sand on my feet and in between my toes. And look out over the ocean. God it's beautiful. The water was cold but I didn't care. It started to rain but I didn't care. Until of course I saw a streak of lightning, then I hauled butt out of there.
I watched the pelic
1. I Love people.
2. I look 10 years younger than I am.
3. I got carded when I was 42.
4. I'm a smart ass.
5. I'm hard headed and stubborn.
6. I care about what people think of me.
7. I wish I didn't!
8. I hitch-hiked to Oregon and back with my girlfriends in my late teens.
9. I was rebellious when I was younger.
10. I used to be terribly shy.
11. I still am in some things.
12. I used to be a tomboy.
13. Not sure if I still am.
14. When road rage people get ang
