`Yesterday I bought 2 horse leads I can hang them over my shoulders, no hands I can use a cane and walk the dogs. My wife has a enough to do but my step kids dont do anything to help her they walked the dogs 3 times since sept. I love her and the kids but the kids are useless. I had the fit of rage earler, just ending now. They know my eye sight is screwed up but they will stack stuff in the hallways I trip on it I throw the stuff out, they do it again I throw their stuff again. They will lea
Know that life is different but I feel normal when I go for my walk. It was in the low 50s and my hand still hurt from the cold. I need to get gloves. Oh well. Im walking who Im I to be complaining. A neighbor and friend also has to walk. Its enjoyable with someone. Some times my left side of my face feels more numb. I wonder why. My lexdisiea is bad since the stroke so typing is a core phyically and mentialy. My buddy just called he is going to tractor Supply Im going with him. Im going to
I now have daily contact with my kids. Two are adults a easy task. The other two are two are 12 & 10 and Mom just set them up with Email. I get messages all day. Not complaining , braging. If I have a complaint I need to now type with two hands to keep up. But I love them Im trying harder more now then ever. I guess I get what I need when I need it. Now I hae to get ready to visit Mom. Have fun guys.
I have been busy today. My both daughters from my first marage are e mailing me. My 2nd wife set up a e mail address and son and I wrote maybe my lil dtr is next. Im lucky The stroke give my kids back. Marry Chirstmas!
I have all my kids back In my life! I have my wonderful wife, my family, my friends, all of you my computer friends I could not make it with out you. God Bless all of you. May He bring the wonderious gifts I have. I have a wonderful life and may you also. Merry Christmas!
Kelly is my third wife. I have 2 dauthers from my first marrage their 24-25, the younger visited me the day after I had the first stroke the oldest called. I email the youngest every cpl days. The oldest I have not heard from again. I got her email from a group e mail. I sent her one, hope she writes back. The group email is from my brother. It details how Im doing health rehab etc. Nice to have family who cares and believe me I dont deserve it . Im just lucky. Surviving the stroke I got a secon
Hey everyone! I had my surg yesterday It went fine Im a little sore but... Im home! I think I met an angel. She is 84 her name is Evelyn. She had a mesetomy 2 mths ago. She was recovering from a minor surgery today and 12/31/08 she goes in for open heart surg. Her only care at the time was me. When I was discharged the nurse took me to say goodbye to her, shes such a beautiful person such faith and love. Ill ask a favor please pray for Evelyn. Faiths spreads. I thought that my stroke was for a
Being a chistian is a copout. Dont get mad Ill explain. I was rushed to the er I had a stroke There were 3 of us w/ strokes 1 is in pain the other 2 are in paradise W/ God. Im awake because of pain and going in for surgery in the morning I should be a sleep but awake w/ pain. But Im lucky. I lost my job Im broke almost sure woodworking is a thing of the past I cant walk and work my dogs or train the others I was training a passion of mine all my plans and dreams gone and Im lucky. The other 2
I always faught city hall, so much so I worked for them. Fight the system beat the odds ,im in. I went to the neurlogest today he said the numbness on my arm and hand is permament, much of my weakess will stay Ill be damned. Im not done. I might not get all back but this is not enough Ill beat it. I realize the 2nd stroke pnounia etc put a damper on the recovery but Im not done. I will not give up. I have people counting on me, people who have worked hard caring for me, and I cant be cont
I my name is Bart and Im a stroke survior. I am powerless over my stroke and turned over my will to God. What my new path I take will be in His hands I have asked that He help with all my decissions. I ask that His will be done. I also asked for help with memorey and spilling. Tommrow I go for the heart repair. "It be alright". Kelly my wife her sister and my brother will be there. They all have been there from the start. My cheering squad my shoulder my spiritual guidence my nurse caregiver
Yesterday I worked my hand pretty good. I exersized for hours. Today need to get an mri. Other then that. Ill read I got some high school age books from library. I used to love to read. Its work now. But takes me away. I am going to tape my my good hand up today. I guess I should type first. I hear my wife getting my pills ready. Im going to start my hand written diary today for speach again. No trying to be witty today. My wife is off and she makes me nervous dont know why, she is the one pe
I hate oatmeal and every day oatmeal. V8 everyday. I want good food not food good for you. Why cant a jelly donnut be healthy. Im hungry.... I want a chicken breast breaded fryed topped with a good sauce and cheese, chicken parm I smell it now ...and the garlic .. Im hungry. Dont forget the buttery garlic bread. Im hungry. Ill eat my yogurt. I hate yogurt. What more can I complain about. Oh! I know Im using my left hand and its hard. Its not typing but am using it. I know that using the left f
I lost my car/house keys once when I went out and locked door I came home and got in but where the keys are thats one set. The other set I lost when I started and moved the truck. Well the point, I looked for the keys cleaning out my drawers, folding all my clothes. I managed to get it folded in the drawers. no keys. I got a clothes closet for tommorow. The pills was 2 .5 hrs light on controling pain. They made my happier then morphine. OH! the the keys I got locked out of the house when I took
Went to er after my last blog. spent a few days. saw old friends and had meds. i feel better. i was not ready for the dirt nap. still not. i have a mission to help in rewriting the local hospitals stroke booket and get envolved their training classes for treating stroke patients. i worked at the hospital am an emt and i guess i care. if i can help someone else then all this makes sense dont it? if i cant cut my meat but can help someone else thats amazing. each one of us might seem to have a m
For several days I have a bad taste in my mouth food tastes bad and I get nausus so I have not eaten for days. My lft eye is blurry and today I woke up w/ my lft lung is getting cramps now breathing is a chore I dont Know what else I can over come. Im affraid Im becoming a slug
My wife went to a party, one of my friends, she needs to get away. It hurts that im a burden that she needs to get away from but housemd is on tv and im fine.wiith it once i can drive ill have little freedom to get away.also
As you know or can imagine I feel I lost me. Not that now Im not proud of who I was but now I can change, what will I be? Its excitng I guess I have a 2nd chance. Forget my old life. Ill start over. May be im lucky ,a stroke of luck. Is this the start of being reborn? Will my new life have the pain I do now?
Id be dead given the choice but i guess the choice is not mine i made a promise i would not hurt myself .I only have part of my body and mind but have my word it might be slirred but its all i have left. so suffer i will.Try or care i cant promess i dont now . When it hurts to walk talk move your arm, leg ,neck or when you use the bathroom its a shuggle motervation is low. when before my 2nd stroke my wife said shes affraid to have sex. i realized im only a part of man that i was and the part wh
I went to the hospital for blood work. my wife went to my ocupational threapest to decrribe how i am. i spent 5hrs in the er had morphine and am trying baclofen and percocetts for spasms ill post how im doing tomorow. if i move my pain gets the best if me but as i said to my o/t i hurt enough im not gonna hurt myself. i pray im a new man with a new attitude when i wake up
Got up took a shower arm/ leg hurt so much. the remote control is misplaced typing to hard . back to bed . my live dont always suck in my dreams. can i sleep till i get to take a dirt nap?
The woman is stoic does eveything she can for me only complains when I do and Im sure Im wrong each time and.... shes right. Now can I really give up? Ill do it for her I guess if I can.
I went to have my bood levels checked, when I got home I got call to go nearest er my level was12.4 It was dangerous. I spent the night in the hosp. got plasma and will start the rat poison again tonight. The good side they manage my pain w/ iv morphine and I love the vanilla pudding. The bad news I almost gave up. My leg hurts always,, my arm and hurts to use it. I just dont care right now, hope I got out of the funk for my loved ones sake. F it I really not care any more it took a1/2 hr to po
Nov 14 I had my 2nd stoke. A little weaker a little slower now a cane and content headache. Im thankful to be home for t day got out of universty of md med ctr yesterday. I thankful for my nurse cook driver and pal, my wife Kelly, my reason to keep going. God has given me a lot to be thankful for. A lot more challenges and I pray alot more courage to pull this off and meet it and remember to thank God and my wife daily. I figure I got to hit bottom first before I excell.
