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I've given in

Yesterday i gave in......i canceled my membership at my local ymca. yesterday i gave in.....i will no longer take 3 hour art workshops. yesterday i gave in......i will get some help with housework. and so forth......   I have NOT however, given up!!! I will do what i can when it comes to exercise each day. I will continue to draw and paint as i desire and the classes I choose to take will be in a series and with limited hours. I have set up a schedule with a young woman in the neighborho

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FINDING THE MIDDLE GROUND

i am begining to think, at least for me, there is some sort of cycle involved with my stroke and my physical well being. maybe i am way off here......i don't know. i have always been a focused person and enjoyed exercise and creative activity. i did rehab with 100% plus of myself, and i want to do as much as possible to live my life to the fullest. i also know the old kathy is long gone and i am a bit more delicate LOL these days. i know if i go to my water exercise class i can only do half

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attitude is the mind's paintbrush, it can color any situation

well,it is 2009...seems like i was just waiting for 2000 yesterday. it will be a good year. i try to think of every cold day as one day closer to spring and being able to get outside again. ice is my new enemy.... :Tantrum: it is so scary and i am afraid of falling. maybe i will get mt. boots with cleats or something.....that should be a real fashion statement. right now i just stay inside.   i am happy to report my eyebrow is growing in...my hubby is glad too. he said i had a jack nick

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2008 is ending

it is a relief to say that Christmas is over. Everyone around the condos all seem to share the letdown caused by the expectations we all have of the perfect family holiday. Ours was fine...i was amazed and, almost appalled, at the number of expensive gifts our grandson Connor received. Perhaps I was just overwhelmed by the day but things were certainly different when i was a kid. gee, i swore i would never say that.   i have been reading posts and blogs this morning and am thinking of the

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all I want for Christmas is my eyebrow!

Our neighbors are having their annual Christmas open house later today for friends and family. We are invited and since they live in the condo across from us it does not seem too far to travel. We really have been blessed in finding a place with such great neighbors. Anyhow, I started getting ready last night...pick clothes out ( gee, what looks festive with black sneakers and afo? ) checked out my holiday reindeer head gear that lights up and plays music and waxed my brows. I am still not

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let it it snow!

we are back in New England for sure! We are expecting our first nor'easter since our return from florida in January. The cold really increases my pain...but i have to admit i still get excited when mother nature shows off! I always have been a bit of a weather junkie and this is neat so close to christmas. Of course the merchants are probably upset with a blizzard occuring the last week-end before christmas. :yikes: maybe that means people don't need to buy more "stuff". Right after chat ye

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the parental unit visit

my mom and dad left yesterday after a 8 day visit. it rained for 6 of the days so we really just hung out. my parents are both 81 and they took the train from colorado to come visit. my dad said they wanted to try something new! dad is having problems walking and my mom...this kills me.....is in a brain fog. dad is really doing most things for her. so we chatted, looked at pictures and i introduced them to wii. we also took some drives, in the rain, to look at the shore and christmas

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SANTA HANGS OUT ON CRANBERRY GROVE WAY!

my husband likes christmas. he hangs up his cranky attitude in december and everywhere he goes he wears his red velveteen hat with the big white pom pom. the thing is he has a pure white beard and a tummy of some substance and he often causes a stir with little children. yesterday he was walking our dog sasha around the our condo in his red vest wearing "the hat". he noticed two little kids jumping up and down in our neighbor charlotte's the picture window. their grandmother opened the front

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post turkey...gobble, gobbl, gob, g......

it is the day after thanksgiving and i guess now the shopping season has offically begun. i am done with my holiday gifts, but still have a bit of baking to do. i watched with amazement on tv this morning as people lined up at 4 a.m. to shop. i have never done that, although i remember driving to boston when andy was a little boy for some lego set he had his heart set on.   i made turkey sugar cookies for connor's daycare last week...using candy corns around the cookie top for the tail....

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just snap out of it!

two weeks from today is thanksgiving......hard to beleive. the heat is on in the house so i know winter has arrived. spent the last two days trying to kick some dark feelings....as maria always says, i was trying to snap out of it. well, i didn't snap, but i kept plodding on and it got better. i am begining to think that the black depression cloud will come and hover regularly in my life. i am getting to know it and understand it better and that, in turn, helps me from getting overwhelmed.

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boo

now i remember why we thought florida might be a good place to retire......it is quite chilly here! i just installed my heated birdbath for the winter months and added a new bird feeder to the others - kathy's spa is bird ready. i also hung up two rattan like pods that are hollow for the birds to have some protection beyond just trees and bushes as it grows colder. in a fit of recycling frenzy i picked up the dog hair from sasha's latest brushing and lined the bottom of the pods. should be,

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never cut your own hair with one hand

as usual the days fly by....i noted my third stroke anniversary on september 16th......looking back over these past years i see how far i have come. i have always been of the mindset, work hard enough and reach the goal. hard work is the answer to post stroke recovery up to a point and then a change of view and compassion for oneself is required. the actual day passed quietly......my sister and mom were visiting from colorado and we did girl stuff like lunch and facials. i guess time and at

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it is a meditation

:Hi: well, summer is almost offically over. here on cape cod that means a flood of holiday makers hitting the road to celebrate labor day. :yikes: both bridges have up to 8 miles of traffic back up and it is only thursday. barry and i have already implemented our standard method of surviving.....lay in supplies and stay off the roads! :Munch: :bookread: soon the traffic will l thin and my favorite month of october will arrive. i love the cooler weather and the fall colors along 6A are lo

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SUMMER UPDATE........NO DRAMA

WOW! IT HAS BEEN MONTHS ...LITERALLY......SINCE I BLOGGED. I MANAGED TO GET A YEAR OLDER.....I HAD A NICE BIRTHDAY IN JUNE. I SPENT MOST OF JULY SICK WHICH INCLUDED TWO TRIPS TO THE ER AND I AM HAPPY TO SAY ALL THAT IS BEHIND ME NOW.   IT HAS BEEN A QUIET SUMMER AT OUR HOUSE. WE PLANTED SOME VEGGIES IN BIG BUCKETS ON OUR PATIO AND HAVE BEEN ENJOYING TOMATOES, CUKES AND SQUASH. IT IS SO GREAT TO HAVE A TOMATOE THAT TASTES LIKE IT SHOULD AND NOT CARDBOARD.   OUR BIRDS HAVE BEEN A RE

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who would want to be me?

we all hear about people taking some one's id these days. well, someone tried to take part of mine in the form of using my debit card. thankfully the bank caught it and the purchases did not go through. i did have to destroy my old card and apply for a new one. bad timing as i am going out to indianna on wednesday to stay with my aunt for a few weeks. guess these things never happen at the ideal time. i am not too crazy about this trip and i feel like i got conned into it.. first, i hate

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iris and meds...what a mix!

wow! another week has flown by. when i first stroked i would sit in a chair and wonder what i was going to do all day. these days i feel my days are pretty full. granted i spend time resting, days when my "parts don't work" i lie low, nap and read and yes, it takes so much longer to do things....but i no longer look at the day as empty. i guess it really is up to each of us how we use the time we are given. of course i am still not moved in completely and some days that makes me nuts and ot

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life in wareham

[b]well, grampy and i baby sat for connor on friday night so his folks could go out to dinner. we arrived a bit early and were reved up for our duties. after all, being around to do this sort of thing is one of the major reason we moved back north. connor's mom and dad had a nice time out - grampy and grandma played hard for 3 hours! we colored, we read stories, we ate supper, we played with stuffed animals and things that talked and made noise! i had forgotten the energy and demands of a t

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i am NOT complaining!

here it is the 3rd of may and i have my heat on. this is our 4th day of gloomy weather! i am NOT complaining - i remember how i was sick of the contant sun and heat of florida. well that problem is solved for sure! the most thrilling thing here is the arrival of the birds to our backyard. :happydance: i am very excited as i already have had a hummer come to my feeder. i think he is an early arrival - they travel solo - but he has been snacking faithfully each day. i also have a pair of

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just checking in

not much happening here. went to the pain clinic this past week --met the new doctor and started to cry! i swear i can't take me out in public anymore. she seems okay but i had really gotten attached to my florida doctor....i guess i did not realize how much! it is pouring rain quite hard today and so the choices to past time are limited. of course there is housework, :cleaning: but as i said the choices are limited. lol. last week we went to the zoo with our grandson connor. it was fu

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that man cracks me up!

well, i am over my blues and i have to thank my strokenet family for the support! the blog last week really helped me put things into perspective. getting down is so tough - i think when i feel gloomy or sorry for myself i am being weak. someday i will really believe that feelings are just part of being human! well, i spent most of friday in the er - in a odd moment i asked my husband for a hug - he hugged me and we heard the most awful sound - major pain - found out the hug tore ligaments

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one of those times!

i guess i am a whiner - seem to be having some tough physical and emotional times these days. being back in my old home area is great --and unexpectedly hard. i worked for years in the plymouth area (my main office) and now live only about a mile from one of my branch offices - actually all five sites that were my responsibility are within a 15 mile area. it seems everywhere i go i am reminded of who and what i was before my stroke. i loved my work and felt i made a small difference in the l

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the joy of a chilly, grey, new england spring!

it has been ages since i blogged and i really missed the satisfaction of sorting through thoughts as i wrote. even more, i missed catching up each week with my cyber familiy. the move from florida to new england is finished complete with horror story about the moving company --but i won't bore you with details. we were blessed to find a great little one floor condo in a very small 55+ community. we ended up right over the cape cod bridge so i can no longer say i live on the cape but merely

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a little of this and that

hi all,   i love fridays as that is the day i try to set aside to read everyone's blog and get caught up on many of my cyber friend's lives. it is snowing to beat the band outside as i write this and i know - like perry - i am going to be a shut in for a bit. it really is lovely - especially when viewed from inside. not too much happening here. we have two weeks till we close on the new house. barry said we will take our time getting settled and then get the perfect things we will need. h

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Toto, we are NOT in florida anymore!

as i last posted we made our journey north with safety and success. we have spent the last week looking at houses - now, i thought this would be fun as i am a very nosey person. it turned out to be hard work getting down the condo stairs where we are staying and in and out of the car and into strange houses and then back up the condo stairs! i did not whine :bouncing_off_wall: i did not complain as i had a battle plan - find a house. it is amazing to me what realtors mean when they write "im

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we made it!

i have really missed being on site this last week or so. i was sad to learn louise has had serious setbacks and very happy to learn of donna's procedure success! while catching up i noticed that quite a few people are having some down times. maybe caused by post holiday exhaustion and boredom with bad weather perhaps? i feel as if i have been living in a spinning top. stuff, more stuff, fast, faster --never stopping. i can honestly share with everyone that i did, in fact, pack my brain.

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